Concussions in Youth Football

Concussions an issue beyond NFL
“WARNING: No helmet can prevent the serious head or neck injuries a player might receive while participating in football.”
Every football player's helmet reminds them of the dangers they face each time they buckle their chin straps.
NFL football player Ray Lewis calls football a “man's game,” but the hazards of football, particularly concussions, don't discriminate between men and boys.
A 2011 study conducted by the Center for Injury Research and Policy of The Research Institute at Nationwide Children's Hospital said over 8,000 adolescent athletes are treated for concussions each year.
Each day, an average of 57 six to 17 year-olds are treated in U.S. Emergency rooms for football concussions.
Such statistics have catapulted the concussion issue to the forefront of the American football community psyche.
Youth football players are at risk of incurring not only acute effects of concussions like loss of balance and dizziness but chronic effects like loss of long-term memory if they continue playing football on into high school and possibly beyond.
“Obviously the younger you start somebody getting little mini head traumas then the more opportunities there are for injury,” said LSU head team physician Dr. Jeffrey Burnham.
Greater awareness of the severity of concussion symptoms and effects has lead to increased emphasis on addressing player safety and well being at the youth football level.
Burnham believes the increased focus on concussions has lead to more detection of injuries.
“I think to some extent we may be seeing more concussions just because every year we're looking harder and harder, and we're making the athletes themselves aware of it,” Burnham said.
In 2008, the NFL began making concussions and player safety a higher priority.
The league released a pamphlet to players to educate them about concussions and opened a hotline to report instances of players being forced to play against medical advice.
The Louisiana Youth Football organization began taking action against concussions around the same time the NFL did three years ago.
Louisiana Youth Football sees kids between the ages of four and thirteen suit up to play football and director LeRoy Hollins believes the organization is ahead of the game on concussion safety.
“We’re getting NFL information at a youth level, and we’re getting it early,” Hollins said. “As soon as they get it, we get it.”
Because youth football players can start playing at such an early age, there's a greater chance to encounter the cumulative effects of concussions, despite the game not being as fast or physical as the collegiate or professional ranks.
According to Burnham, a player is more susceptible to concussions after suffering their first one and the consequences may be more severe.
“There's something called second impact syndrome, where an athlete can actually die on the field, almost immediately from a second impact that's added to a previous concussion,” Burnham said.
Herman Daigre coaches Louisiana Youth Football’s Baton Rouge Trojans and recognizes this fact.
“I absolutely think about it. Both of my kids play,” Daigre said. “Being a father I'm always thinking about the safety of the kids.”
Daigre and other coaches don't want to jeopardize the safety of the young athletes and choose to err on the side of caution when faced with a decision.
“Out here we just don’t take no chances. A kid gets hit hard, we believe it’s a head injury, under no circumstances whether he passes the test or not we just put him out just to be on the safe side,” Daigre said.
Daigre is a paramedic off the field and tests players himself to see if they show concussion symptoms.
“The finger test, eye coordination. We don’t have the actual staff to help the kids like in college or high school, we just play it safe and pull them out,” Daigre said.
While the organization doesn’t have the medical staff that high schools, college and professional teams have, every coach is trained to recognize and deal with concussions.
“All our coaches have to go through a certification program and within that certification program is a certification for the concussion,” Hollins said.
Coaches are able to recognize the symptoms of concussions so they can treat their players appropriately.
Football fans see concussions happen during games, but players can get hurt even when the stadium lights are off.
“They are sometimes an issue in practice,” Burnham said.
The Youth Safety Alliance reports that 62 percent of all team sports injuries actually occur in practice.
Daigre has structured his practices to make sure players remain healthy over the course of a season.
“I might have one day, maybe one day (per week), where we do contact,” Daigre said. “When I do contact, I do it very sparingly.”
When Daigre does conduct full contact practices, he stresses techniques that emphasize player safety.
“No head to head contact,” Daigre said. “We try to hit low, wrap up, put your head to the side of the player.”
A player that suffers a concussion may initially experience blurred vision and loss of balance and possibly loss of consciousness for a short period of time.
Burnham notes the acute effects of concussions can become bigger problems if a player doesn't take the time to fully recover.
“With your brain obviously, you want to make sure it's 100 percent back to normal because if you don't, you're going to get some cumulative effects over a period of time that can cause memory changes and mood changes,” Burnham said.
Football historically has championed toughness and playing hurt, and coaches for decades have been the ones telling players to “walk it off,” or “suck it up,” and stay on the field.
Along with being LSU's head physician, Burnham works with Episcopal high school in Baton Rouge and feels coaches at all levels are better educated to make informed decisions about player safety.
“I think coaches are better educated today and understand the consequences of some of those problems and I think they truly do want the best for their athletes,” Burnham said.
Daigre says some of the pressure for kids to play through injuries like concussions has actually come from parents.
“You might get some parents that might want to push you to put their kids in, them believing they're alright because they say they're alright, but we can't take that chance,” Daigre said.
Sometimes players are the ones pleading to get back on the field.
“They are so competitive and they want to be back in there and sometimes the symptoms are fairly subtle,” Burnham said. “We have to be strong with them sometimes.”
Burnham and Daigre both agree that safety ultimately comes first when they make a decision to sit or play an athlete.
“Sometimes you do have to make the judgment that's best for the athlete,” Burnahm said.
For Daigre that may mean player safety coming before team success.
“Safety comes first when it comes to the Baton Rouge Trojans and we'll win after that,” Daigre said.

MC 7040 Profile Story

Tornado survivor left twisting in the wind
It started with a series of dreams.
For three straight April nights in 2010, Corbin White of Yazoo County, MS, dreamt of tornados.
On April 24, White’s dreams turned into a real life nightmare.
“I started to look up the meaning of tornado dreams and it just meant there’s gonna be turmoil in your life,” White said. “Literally that weekend, I was in a tornado.”
That Saturday an EF-4 tornado with winds of up to 170 mph tore across northeast Louisiana and into central Mississippi killing 10 and injuring dozens more.
The National Weather Service describes tornados packing such force as, “devastating.”
White began her day at her boyfriend Nathan Pepper’s house near Yazoo City, unaware that she would face one of nature’s most powerful forces hours later.
“It was sunny and I wasn’t worried about it,” White said.
A little before lunchtime, White received a call from Pepper who was at work, telling her she needed to get downstairs into the bathroom.
White was home by herself and argued with her boyfriend that she didn’t want to be home alone if bad weather hit.
“I told him, ‘I’m going to your parents,’ and I just hung up on him,” White said.
White knew something was wrong as soon as she stepped outside to walk to her car.
“People say it’s eerie before a storm,” White said. “It was just gray and eerie.”
Once White was on the road, she realized she’d made a mistake leaving home.
“Nothing was moving. There were no squirrels, there were no people outside. I was the only person stupid enough to leave and drive,” White said.

A Living Nightmare

It didn’t take long for the weather to get ugly.
White got into downtown Yazoo when she began to lose control of her car.
“My car started skidding to the left and I felt my wheels come off the ground,” White said.
Powerful winds pushed White’s car off the road into a ditch.
White saw a gas station near where her car had been moved to and left her vehicle to make a run for the safety of the building.
She had no idea a tornado was bearing down on the ground she was sprinting across across.
Once inside the gas station, White and the gas station owner watched as the tornado tore into the space she’d occupied only seconds before.
“The awning over the gas pumps totally blew away,” White said.
The sound was even more harrowing.
“It sounded like a train was on top of my body. That’s how loud it was,” White said.
White doesn’t remember how long it took for the tornado to pass over the gas station but can recall vividly what she saw when she stepped outside.
“There was this shopping center across the intersection and the left and right sides of it were completely flat. It was like rubble,” White said.
After looking at the surrounding area, White couldn’t believe how the little gas station she and the owner had taken refuge in managed to hold up.
“It looked like a warzone,” White said.

Sifting through the wreckage

White managed to start her car but couldn’t drive to Pepper’s parents’ house because of debris covering the roads.
“I ended up at his brother’s house,” White said. “His brother was in the carport on the phone and I don’t remember it but he said I got out of the car, I was pale and I walked under the carport and he said I collapsed.”
It was the first moment White had been still since she left her boyfriend’s house earlier that day and the first moment she could begin to understand her reactions to the tornado.
“I was scared but I didn’t even have to think. It (my body) just went into survival mode,” White said.
White and Nathan’s brother Jared Pepper decided to head back to her house to see if there was any damage.
White saw a different world beyond Jared’s truck window.
The town was ravaged. Buildings that stood an hour ago weren’t there anymore and trees were down everywhere.
“People are literally coming out of rubble,” White said. “People were cutting through trees to try to get to places.”
White reached her boyfriend’s house and was greeted by Nathan.
“He’s standing there just looking at his back yard, and I just ran and hugged him,” White said.
The house went largely undamaged, but the rest of the neighborhood did not.
“There was this woman and her three kids that lived in a trailer down the street from Nathan and apparently the tornado picked up her trailer,” White said.
Corbin returned to Jared’s house while Nathan, Jared and a police officer picked through the rubble of the trailer to find the family.
Later that evening the brothers returned to White and described to her how merciless nature could be.
The mother didn’t survive, leaving behind a baby and two little boys who survived with injuries.
“He (Nathan) had nightmares about it for weeks,” White said. “He told me that her body didn’t even look human, it was so mangled.”

Afraid of the Wind

For weeks after the tornado, White saw a city struggling to pick up the pieces.
“They had called in the National Guard, there were Army tents set up everywhere,” White said.
Looking at White and Yazoo, both still haven’t made a full recovery.
“I’m still very much in shock and afraid,” White said.
The tornado winds physically altered Yazoo City’s landscape, changing White’s appearance as well.
“I literally lost a lot of weight after that because I was always scared. Every second I was scared that something was just going to drop out of the sky,” White said.
The dreams haven’t stopped either.
“I have tornado nightmares all the time, and I also think I have panic attacks,” White said.
White isn’t the only one still affected by the tornado.
She and Nathan have since broken up, but they still share an experience that will stay with them for life.
“He still will call me to this day in tears, like something just triggered him thinking about it,” White said.
Natural disasters often serve as an unfortunate reminder of man’s helplessness in the face of nature.
With each catastrophe humanity endures, a new level of respect for Mother Earth’s awesome might is realized.
“I am scared of Mother Nature every day,” White said.
With each day White deals with the memories she carries from that April afternoon a year and a half ago.
Dark clouds that once beckoned her and her family out to the front porch to watch the rain fall now usher her indoors for fear of what may come.
But those dark clouds and violent winds have made her hold those she cares about closer than ever.
“I’m very much more caring about each second of my life and each person in it,” White said.
In the journey of life, one will face many storms, literally and figuratively.
For White, this one is a storm she believes she’ll never fully recover from, but with a newfound respect for nature and a reinforced love for her family and friends, she moves forward.

2010 Dillard’s Uncle Fantasy Baseball League Prediction Special
Brought to you by Jay Moersen and Michael Wunderlich of The Almosts and The Columbia Narwhals respectively

With each new season comes new optimism that for each team, “This really is the year!” The draft and the celebratory festivities have come and gone, Spring Training is nearing its conclusion and once again, The Dillard’s Uncle Fantasy Baseball league, a league so elite that one Tim Kurkjian realized we were too hardcore for him, is ready to plunge head first into a season as new and as fresh as the first pearl that’ll be thrown out at Fenway Park on April 4th by Mr. Josh Beckett. Without any further adieu, these are your 2010 Official DU League Predictions, brought to you by Jay “That Chicken Finger Place is Delicious!” Moersen, and translated into literary form by Michael “Does Anyone Want to Get a Pizza?” Wunderlich. You’ve all been waiting the entire winter for this, so here you are:

EMANSKI’S ALL STARS
We start with the reigning DU league champions, the team with the monstrous trophy adorning a certain apartment in Clemson, SC. Neal Moersen’s Emanski’s All Stars certainly lived up to the legendary Tom Emanski’s billing last year, playing to a degree of excellence that only The Crime Dog could endorse. According to Sir Jay,

Best Pick: Scott Sizemore, 18th round. Projected to have 16 hr 75 rbi 10 sb, Sizemore looks to be a nice replacement to EAS legend Brian Roberts as he begins his climb in years. Roberts is still solid though, as we all know.

Biggest Reach: Brandon Webb, 11th round.

Overview: Overall, EAS once again put in a solid draft day. A solid team all around, the champs only real need was at the starting pitcher position, something that wasn’t addressed in full this past weekend. Ricky Nolasco stands out among the five starting pitchers drafted that will be a viable fantasy option this year, although Webb and Sheets may both yield big time rewards if they bounce back and return to form. Hell, if they return to a portion of their old selves they could represent some good value. If those two emerge back into shape, the EAS rotation will go from the bottom of the pack to the top 3 overall.

Grade: B

The Almosts
The team that was probably the most talked about approaching draft day for various reasons, The Almosts are a formidable team in the Jake the Snake division, headed up by Jay “I’ve got Laundromats, Bitch!” Moersen. (Actual quote from Five Points the other night.) A solid team all around with a manager that isn’t afraid to shake up his roster and pull the trigger on a big trade, not to mention a meticulous number cruncher, this squad is another team to beware of.

Value Pick: 19th round Marco Scutaro. Projected at 11-62-8 this year, Scutaro batting 9th in the Boston order is like someone batting 7th in most other lineups. Scutaro may not produce on the same level he did last year with Toronto, but he’ll still be a good option if Jason Bartlett doesn’t build on his breakout year of 2009.

Biggest Reach: 13th round, Tim Hudson. The #4 for The Almosts, but he’s still coming off of Tommy John, which can be a hit or miss in terms of performance post-op. Hopefully for The Almosts, he returns and channels his inner Josh Johnson instead of Carl Pavano.

Overview: This team filled a lot of needs early in the draft, something you have to do if you want to win. Depth in the OF and a SS were both primary needs, and both were acquired on draft day. One question mark going into the season though is the health of Brad Lidge and Huston Street and how they’ll hold up during the season, and if they’ll perform like they have in the past. Saves could be an issue.

Overall: B+


Finley’s Fungo
After a mid-season name change and a streak of tough luck in terms of position players, manager Daniel “Sheet Murderer” Gordon has professed that this team is more to his liking, which could spell trouble because we all know Gordon has a sound baseball mind, and knows how to adjust during the season as well as anyone there is. Fungo, with their devastating pitching rotation could be a dominant team if the offense catches up this year.

Value Pick: 24th round, David Ortiz. Despite the fact that he’s older, fatter, admitted to taking PED’s and isn’t nearly as scary, (and he doesn’t play the field,) Ortiz still put up 25+ homers and 99 rbi’s last year, and that was a season when everyone was thinking he was finished as a baseball player. He’s still capable of putting up those kind of numbers this year.

Biggest Reach: None. Short arms are to blame.

Overview: Picking up Derek Lee early takes care of the most glaring need the Fungo had last season at 1B. Lee’s still a solid contributor and should be motivated to help the Cubs go deep into the playoffs this year, as their window of opportunity with their current team is closing fast. He went high for potential starter David Price and Jorge De La Rosa, which for some teams may have been suicidal, but Fungo’s staff is so strong that it’s a worthy endeavor to risk those picks. A small negative would have to be the lack of aggressiveness in going for closers, but as we’ve all heard before, never pay for saves. There’s always a Kevin Gregg waiting around on the waiver wire.

Grade: A


Razzle Dalzell
The team who’s location actually flaunts a team with an even more badass name, The Trailbosses, is headed up by manager John “Our Dryer’s Broke” Sheridan. Known for his quick and adaptive thinking in setting lineups and acquiring players, Dalzell is always an interesting team, brimming with young talent.

Value Pick: 11th round, Clayton Kershaw. A no brainer, Dalzell needed a third starter and a keeper worthy pitcher. Seems as though Kershaw was gift wrapped.

Biggest Reach: None

Overview: Once again, Dalzell assembles a solid team. In terms of youth and talent, there’s not an equal team in the league. This is a typical Sheridan team if you’ve ever watched him play the Dynasty mode on The Show. Prospects and young talent. The only downside is he took one infielder, so he didn’t do enough to add depth to his infield.

Grade: B



McCann’s Cans
The team with one of the top hitting catchers in the league, THE best hitter in the league and two of the most proficient speeders in the league, this is a scary team that needs the starting pitching to remain healthy and the young guns to step up.

Value Pick: 19th round, JA Happ. Chapman will start the year in the minors, discounting his ability to produce early, and so a third starter was needed, and Happ is exactly what was needed, late in the draft.

Biggest Reach: Alex Rios. Effort and batting average leave a ton to be desired from someone you’d expect to destroy in all facets of the game if he actually applied himself. HR’s and RBI aren’t anything to boast of, he’ll get his fair share of steals this year, but Crawdaddy and Ellsbury already put in the most work for that category.

Overview: Another solid Albert Pujols led team, nothing to argue about that. A qualm though, would be that there’s not enough variety in stat category coverage for the Cans to progress anymore than last year. The same starting staff basically returns, and all the key positional players are there. Maybe just a little more luck at the end of the season is what it’ll take.

Grade: B



Your Mom’s Cunnilingus Crew
Dylan “Big Nasty” Reese, aka The Demoralizer, aka DReese, aka I Hate Grayson Mullins more than I hate having a root canal, is back ladies and gentlemen, and The Crew is coming with him. Boasting some of the finest performers pitching and hitting last year, The Crew are another team as nasty as their name. Although they do have Arthur Rhodes.

Value Pick: 20th round, Todd Helton. Had a nice season last year, still a productive player, struck out 160 times less than Mark Reynolds did.

Biggest Reach: Mark Reynolds. While he filled a major positional need, but home runs can be found in a myriad of other players.

Overview: Possessing only 13 picks this year, The Crew had to be efficient, but still wasted 5 picks on Damon, Hunter, Mijares, Milledge and Feliciano. Granted, the Damon pick was autopicked because his computer froze. He could have waited on the setup men until after the draft and found anyone he wanted in free agency.

Grade: C


The Banhammers
Headed up by new arrival Dave “I’m in Spain, Bitch,” Espindle, Dave inherits Matthew Patula’s team that had a great season last year and has a few dynamic players and an overall strong roster. But Jay’s assessment of the draft for Dave was like the icon for his team, “Stern, but fair.”

Value Pick: 12 round, Carlos Lee. No Brainer #2. A 3rd outfielder was needed and he didn’t have an 11th round pick, and luckily, The Horse was still there.

Biggest Reach: Carlos Pena. With Tex and Joey Votto on board, The Banhammers grabbed
Pena in the 17th. With that kind of depth, Pena at anytime for The Banhammers is a problem.

Overview: Hopefully Dave wasn’t at the draft the entire time, as a few picks befuddled Master Jay. Namely, Pena, Beltre, Vlad and Matsui back to back, as well as the fact that Jenks and R. Soriano are his only relievers.

Grade: C-



Bronx Bombers
The Bombers, headed up by Patrick “I love McDonalds Cinnamon Rolls,” Gordon return a good looking team aimed to make a jump in the standings this year, although more offense will probably be the primary issue to be resolved as the season goes on.

Value Pick: 17th round, Franklin Gutierrez. Who the Cans should have waited for instead of taking Rios.

Biggest Reach: Big Puma, Lance Berkman. Same story as the Hammers. Two solid 1B options… and Berkman? (This is Mike speaking, I believe you said it autopicked it for you because your computer froze.) Although, Master Jay is surprised the big guy fell that far.

Overview: A well rounded team overall, with the exception of Berkman, there were a lot of need filling picks. Guys like Pence, Doumit, Bailey, Kuble and Guitierrez can take this team a long way, although the lack of firepower may not be enough to take it to the playoffs.

Grade: B-

Narwhals
By rule, I won’t write about my team. I’ll just state the fact: My team came in last place last year.

Biggest Reach: John Lackey. Could have had Clayton Kershaw.

Overview: A few problems. First, no closers. DON’T PAY FOR SAVES, but the Narwhals act like they weren’t in this league last year. The outfield won’t scare any opposing managers, with Quentin, Choo, Jones, Spann and Maybin. Much like Pujols, Lincecum can carry a team through some tough weeks, but with a 32 minimum innings rule in place this year it diminishes value and places more importance on depth.

Grade: C


G-Town Hoyas
The only Hoya Paranoia around the league is wondering what Mr. Ethan “Joe Nathan for Justin Verlander straight up” Root will do for his next player transaction. Many a trades proposed and early waiver wire actions have the league abuzz. Chalk it up to preseason giddiness you critics. The Hoyas have a strong baseball mind in Root, who vows to perform well this year.

Biggest Reach: Everyone but Andrus and Soto.

Overview: What happened? Not only did the Hoyas draft Daniel Uggla, a backup catcher before a starting catcher, JJ Hardey and Colby Rasmus, they didn’t take a closer. Master Jay doubts that Ethan could disagree with the statement that he had a bad draft because within 28 hours he dropped and replaced 4 of his draft picks with other players. You could have put the Hoya keepers with any other team’s draft and you could potentially have a playoff team, but instead you’ll have one that will finish last.

Grade: F



Predicted order of finish with Playoff teams* and Champion ***

Dan Marjele
1. All Stars * Not enough pitching
2. Fungo *** Best Pitching
3. Cans *
4. Crew*
5. Narwhals
Jake the Snake
1. Almosts* No firepower in the end
2. Dalzell* Needs to find another Upton
3. Bombers
4. Banhammers
5. Hoyas
There you have it folks, according to Jay Moersen, that’s how it’s going down this year.

Gordon's Fungo squad will presumably win with the Three Horseman and an improved offense, while the rest of the playoff regulars reappear once again, and the whipping boys continue in futility. But like every year, predictions often turn to shit, because as they say, "That's why you play the games." It's going to be about luck, adjustments, shrewd moves and non-moves and being able to stay on top of things. A lot can happen between now and September/October.

You've read them, disagreed, agreed with them, hated them, spit at them, ignored them, embraced them, now let the truth be told.



The season begins April 4th with New York taking on Boston at Fenway at 8pm Eastern Standard Time, Sabathia v. Beckett. Another year, another season. Let the discussions begin.

Life is Good When You're Breathing

I have a hard time,
keeping up this stream of tears,
wallowing in these made up fears,
are these things real to me,
or are they things in which I believe?
just ideas that I did conceive?
I'm pretty sure it's just a dream,
the real hurt comes from something more,
when the fire dies,
the embers fade,
the eyes grow dim,
these are the idols we have made,
perfect bodies, perfect smiles,
perfect lives, these perfect lives,
surrounded by our giant walls,
that shut us out,
lock us in,
slow decaying from within,
our hearts do break,
but we can't feel,
we'll never know,
what's truly real,
sense of touch,
of taste and smell,
all forsaken for what they sell,
we're let down by what can't feel,
consumed by what we swear is real,
I want, I need, I have, I'm sure,
that what I have is white and pure,
it's proof of a life well spent,
proof that somewhere along the way,
everything fell apart.
We're crying out,
from behind our walls,
saviors saviors, saviors,
save us save us, save us,
outstretched arms,
no one will repay us,
for deeds we haven't done,
words in webs we haven't spun,
you look at me for salvation,
but I promise you I'm not the one,
to raise you up to constellations,
I know this,
life is good when you're breathing,
the poor rejoice, the wealthy seething,
the joy of being a human being,
I control myself, look to myself,
I'll fall to pieces,
if I cast my eyes towards someone else,
life is good when you're breathing,
the little things keep my heart beating.

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So many times,
in fact every time,
I've held out my hand,
tried to be the man,
tried to be steady,
tried to be ready,
to hold you up,
to be solid ground,
but it seems every time,
yea, every time,
you gave away,
you walked away,
you stayed away,
and I watched the day,
turn blue to gray,
the sun fall in my skies
lose sight with my eyes,
every time,
yes, every time,
you put me down,
you let me go,
you left me alone,
so gentle it hurt,
so cold that I burned,
so sweet that I soured,
so short that my hours,
turned into seconds,
that turned into moments,
they turned into nightmares,
and set me in my chair,
to sit and to think,
about how I can be,
all of these things, that you'll never see.

Perspective

This past weekend, I went to my friend's house to work again to prepare for his sister's wedding that'll be taking place there.

It's nice to go and let the other stresses of my life wash away, but this weekend, I found myself constantly being reminded of things I'm unhappy with in my own life. The entire weekend, I seemed to dwell on them, letting them consume me at times.

Once I returned back to school, I was confronted by other issues, heavier issues. Without going into detail, my sister is considering transferring schools. On top of this, the girl that is living with my mom has to go to her senior prom on crutches. And it's Easter.

I guess my problems (mainly girl frustrations), seem trivial when placed next to those issues. Life is all about perspective. So much of the time, I lack perspective, and whenever I find it, it's a fresh dose of reality for me. This world is more than what I want out of it. I'm not sure what else I should be doing, wanting, expecting, giving, but the more I'm here, the more I'm sure that I have something else to be doing while I'm here. With patience, I know I'll find it.

The world through my eyes

I'm alone in this crowded world,
above all the crowded rooms,
the clutter escapes me,
and I can breathe,
when I look at where I came from,
I never want to return,
I love my isolation,
so far away and cold,
no one can touch me here,
I hate where I came from,
I hate what they are,
when I see them,
and I see me,
I see how different,
we truly are,

I love being so far away,
and I like it way up here,

nobody can touch me,

and that's how I want to be,
this world is not mine
their world is not mine,
I gave it all away,

the smiling faces,of fabricated moments,
of medicated psyches,
crawling on their hands and knees,
only in my dreams,
only my reality,
when I'm awake,
they all dream
of what it's like to feel alive,
nothing to hold on to,
nothing to believe,
they appear to be alive,
but I fear they're dead inside,


If I had the chance,
to rejoin the world I left,
to fall back with the life I had,
I'd cast down every rope,
every ladder, refuse every hand,
this is where I want to be,
alone, away, only me,
your world is dead,
in my eyes dead,
I'll stay right here,
and wash away.